Latley, I’ve been chasing everything I think I ought to be and everything I think I ought to own. My wanderings have left my soul ravenously hungry and totally dissatisfied.
I am hungry for everything I want and nothing that I need.
Haggai 1:6 captures my self-inflicted predicament:
“You have planted much, but harvest little. You eat but are not satisfied. You drink but are still thirsty. You put on clothes but cannot keep warm.”
David Guzik nails it in his commentary: “If our priorities are wrong, nothing will satisfy us. Each accomplishment soon reveals that there must be something more, something that can really satisfy, Nothing fills the God-shaped void in our life except putting Him first.”
Nothing.
Not endless hours of window shopping. Not my brand new Lululemon Dance Studio pants that I got for Christmas or my Anthropologie bedding. Not the loving of my guy, a fabulous profile picture or an exotic trip across the world.
Nothing but the peace that surpasses all understanding. Peace that comes only from deliberately and habitually abiding in our Abba Father.
Prone to wander, Lord I feel it, Prone to leave the God I love.
Here’s my heart. O take and seal it; Seal it for thy courts above.*
Here’s my heart. O take and seal it; Seal it for thy courts above.*
*Come Thou Fount
Can you relate?